Escaped

To a land that is very familiar to me. Self doubt and fear creeping up on me.

I know what I want but I doubt that the reasoning is clear enough. Why should I, why shouldn't I? Going round in circles but stopping at the center. I can't pin point the why I should but can explain why I shouldn't. So does the practical side win out again?

Probably... always does.

There are a few issues here. Can't elaborate on them right now. My mind is too boggled. All I know is I am confused and torn and hurt and broken for now. It will get better, I will see clearer and I will get through this.

I will make a decision and be ready when it happens. I will see the future and know that God is with me.

My only wish is to be happy again, to feel safe, loved and confident again.

That's all I wish for...