In professional terms, I am flooded with emotions. I would love nothing more then to spill them out here, in my own personal blog. But is that fair to the one I'm annoyed with? Not really, I need an outlet but it wont help really. As I've discovered before.
I am sick... A person who always claims to never get sick. If you know me well you know I'm lying but it is rare that I admit defeat. I carry on because the stuff I have to get done in a day in more important that a sickness. Like all mothers know, you cant take a day off from being a mum. I am exhausted. The effort of keeping up with my daughter and trying to be patient with my husband has worn me out.
I wish that I didnt have to fight so hard for him. I know what he is capable of, I cant see any hope of inspiration going his way tho. I am tired of being mad at him, talking to him, encouraging him. I love him with all my heart but I can't carry all three of us at the moment. Plus the 'neighbours'.
Ok so I'm not flooded anymore... I've just used the last of my energy. I will just ignore his constant need to play playstation, and excuse to not buy paint or do work. I again will ignore it and just pretend that all is good. Its what I do best.
The highs and lows of a wife and mother trying to find her place in the world
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