Crazy weekend!

Havent been here for a while and lucky for me no one has noticed. Some days I love being in the background others not so much.

I have been busy being a bridesmaid for the first time at a 3 day Indian wedding. One word... CRAZY! Apart from just about everything going wrong back stage. We managed to pull off a pretty good appearance. I had no idea what was going on most of the time but kept getting told we look gorgeous in our saris so I couldnt complain. Minus a seriously drunk 19yr old trying to chat us up at the reception, everything went ok. I was just soo grateful that my husband was able to look after my daughter for the night.

I am also gearing up for another crazy weekend for woman's conference. Last night at rehearsal I was questioning why I was still singing. I dont feel valued at all in the music team at the moment. But I know it will take time for things to change since our leaders have departed. I had the best DNM with a girl I take to practices.. She is 19 and wise far beyond her age. She taught me a few things. Learned a few lessons herself. Guess we have to remember we can learn from anyone if we are willing.

While I have a long way to go, as long as I'm still moving and growing thats what really matters. I would die for my family and friends but live for God to bring people into his presents. That's why I use my gifts. Thats why I sing. My passion for God shows more when I sing. I know Im not awesome at it but its where my hearts is. If I were to give it up then I would be lost and depressed. So I will weather this storm of uncertainty and push through my doubts because I believe in a God that is fair and just and gives us the desires of our heart. THIS is my desire and I know God will equip me for what I must do to bring people into his house.

I will conquer ALL through Him who loves me.

Uh... random post I know but its where my thoughts went...