Emotions

So many floating around my head. I love deeply, I hurt even deeper and yet I still love. I get angry, I get tired and I cry. To not care feels like a good option but I know I would not want that. I need to get out! I need to live and enjoy what I a have.

I am appreciating my husband so much more now. We are agreeing on things, feeling the same things. We are finally feeling like a family. We may not be in our house yet, or cut the apron strings yet but our relationship has lifted. He backs me and I am backing him. One situation at a time. Every time we face something, he steps up a baby step to maturing and showing me how much he does care for me. There is a long way to go but I have realised that if I just give him a chance and an opportunity to step up he will take that challenge and surprise me.

As for being hurt. Well, I don't really know what to say. Thats a whole other ball game. I think I just need a new perspective. Right now though I wish I could just take her out and bash some sense into her. Not my place, I'm not the person to do that. I doubt I could ever understand her.

I just cant put into words how much I love God for being so patient with us. Cuz if it was me I would have given up a long time ago! Thank you God for being you. I ask that you deal with that situation cuz I have nothing left to give except anger. Thanks for remembering that I'm human!