Breakthrough!

I've just worked out why I'm so angry/upset/frustrated. Thanks to Fatis Valour 'Hold me now'
'...find myself a place where I can feel home again...' That's what I'm missing. A home. I live in a house that feels cold, big, empty. It holds a childhood and memories that arent mine. I want to create new happy memories.. For us as a family. But I cant do that here.

I am so frustrated that nothing is being done about the house we own. Its just sitting there waiting for adjustments, waiting for a family to occupy it. We may have had some tough times in that house, but it was home. The only place I have felt like a family.

My heart longs for a place I can call my own, one that I chose and decorated and loved and brought my children up in. A place where they can feel privacy, love and safety. I know our house wasnt chosen by me but the next one will be. I will make it and call it our family home. It may just be a building but the heart in it will shine. I want it to shine our love for God, not frustration and pain and anger. Love peace and healing. A sanctuary where God can come and dwell. Where I can feel comfortable worshiping my God freely and openly.

That is my hearts desire.