Life's trials

Life's trials are so short compared to how far we've come and how much we've grown. Where would we be without the tests of relationships and circumstances.

We are pressed on every side but not crushed, we are perplexed but not in despair, We are hunted but not abandoned, we get knocked down but not destroyed. Through suffering, our bodies continue to share the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies. 2 Cor 4:8

We can rejoice too when we run into problems and trials for we know that they help us develop endurance. and endurance develops strength of character and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. This hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy spirit to fill our hearts with his love. Rom 5:3

The promises of God are just amazing. I feel like I have been freed from the darkness that had surrounded my life. It takes a heartbreaking scream... or cry that allows you to give your heart back to the creator. To admit that u cant do it alone. That circumstances dont define who you are. That there is hope even when you cant see it. Just to hear him, feel him and know that you know that he hasnt abandoned you.

Many times have a cried in despair but have taken back what I gave to him. I cant take it back this time, it is too big. I need him to take it and use it to teach me. I admit defeat, I will lay down my life for it is worth nothing without him in it.

The turning point, seems so negative but in fact it has taken me back to where I was in the past and I remembered why I was there and how I never want to feel like that again. It hurt so much at the time but without that memory I would never be where I am today.

This never would have happened it I hadnt neglected my best friend and hurt her deeply. But through her pain and mine, I have just renewed something in my world that I have been fighting so hard for. God allows these things to happen to teach us. A bit intense and dramatic maybe but sometimes its necessary for us to sit up and take notice.

I wont regret what happened as God has turned it into good as he promised but I thank you for being so honest and open to let me see how you feel and helping me wake up and start fighting again and seeing what is good in my world. I dont think you fully understand what has happened here tonight. But I hope in time that I can explain. I love you. God loves you.