Palmed

I had a great weekend... It was awesome.

Until tonight. All I can say is that I have never felt more palmed off. I know I do some stupid things but I didnt know emailing a leader was a bad thing. I'm sure there's a reason and that it wasnt meant to come across that way but it hurt.

I have been in church all my life and seen people leave over less than an email. If I've come to this conclusion how many others have and left because if it.

I will get over it but doesn't change the fact that the someone messed up somewhere. And that if it happens again that someone may just leave over it. It's so sad...

I hate feeling like a doll just palmed off to a department or person that's in charge of me. That I'm just a number someone has to call. It's insulting nearly. I think I preferred not being in a connect group and not being anyone else's responsibility. Some days I feel like you should be able to choose which person you trust to talk to not be assigned one. I know I'm being irrational and that churches need structure but I guess I'm hurting and need to vent a little bit.

I love my church. It will take a lot more than this to make me leave because ultimately I'm there for God. So I will suck it up and get over it.