Staying in control

Today, infuriated and for what? What wasn't said, done or considered? She resists the urge to throw a glass at the wall and scream in frustration. It will pass. The fury will go. The reality won't. She knows she will be stretched. Her acceptance of things will grow. In the meantime she will forego the things that she really wants. She will struggle to remain calm and hold off resentment. Knowing angry words will not solve the problem. Although her tank is empty she draws peace from God's full tank. There is no where else to turn. With the anger subsiding she is thinking hard. How to get the point across without causing a fight. She gives up knowing the words will mean nothing. She will be made to feel like she's being unfair and not clear on she wants. This may be true so she refrains from saying anything at all. Going to put the children to bed the battle in her mind constantly going but her outside demeanour stays calm. Praying that anger stays in check and somehow trusting God will sort out the mess.