A different view

Ok so maybe venting isn't why I'm here... Clearly I suck at it anyway. So here was my weekend,

I cleaned and packed to go away for the weekend. Without the kids.
Sounds like a normal thing to do... Not when I haven't spent more than a couple of hours away from my 9 month old and barely more than a night away from my nearly 3 year old.

At first it was great... freedom, quiet time with husband. We could go anywhere, do whatever we decided to do without taking an hour to get things ready to leave...

But last night, my mother in law called to say Maddison wanted to talk to me. I hear a very soft 'Hello Mummy' on the phone. She sounded so sad that I wanted to jump in the car right then and there to go home and cuddle her. I barely slept last night because all I could think of was how I wanted to see my girls, kiss them, tuck them into bed at night and just be there for them.

For the entire weekend Sarah wouldn't touch her solids apart from a couple of mouthfuls which apparently were a struggle. The lunch I gave her when we got back, she scoffed down no worries.

It makes me never want to leave but then I know I would go completely crazy. As much as I love being free to be me they are definitely a part of who I am now.

It didn't take long for life to fall back into the groove of how it was which makes me wonder why we even bothered to go away in the first place. I'm sure I will see the subtle changes as the weeks go on but right now, it's late and I have been awake since 5am.. So I bid u all a good night.