Finally things are looking up

I went to see a counselor yesterday after a mini breakdown recently. The session I had was an assessment of where I was at. But i walked out of there feeling 10 times better. We hadnt sorted anything out, I just realised that I wasnt going crazy. That was a huge relief. I still have to go see my doctor again but I think we can finally start working through things a little more rationally.

I know all my posts lately have been all over the place. But my mind and emotions have been all over the place. Believe it or not I hate where I have been. I hate that I feel this way. I just needed to talk to the right people to help me sort it out. I feel I have no right to behave the way I did. Or that I had the right to feel the way I do, but who's going to tell me it was wrong?

My head is still mush for the time being but it will be worked out. It'll take a while but if I continue with counseling then I'm pretty sure I will get back on the right track. Thanks to the amazing people that see me so differently to how i see myself. Thanks to those who have supported me. I hate relying on other people but without them I would still be losing my head.